The Waiting Place

God help me, but only He knows how I'm going to survive the next four months. The past two days especially have been diamond making days. I asked God on the way home, please tell me there is a blog in this. I'm frustrated and mad at myself for letting it get to this point. I'm frustrated because I feel like I am spinning my wheels at times. I'm frustrated because I'm impatient. That last one is the one that sums up the others. See God and I have had long talks already about who I am in Him, what His plans are, and some of my dreams. He knows my heart and He knows what I can do.  Now the hard part comes in, reminding my heart when the enemy throws discouragement and frustration in my face what I can do and who I am. I'm going to be really honest right now, if you let what other people say about you and how they treat you cloud your view of who you are and how you see yourself, then the enemy has won. Keeping my focus has been a struggle today, but I should have realized yesterday this test wasn't going anywhere. See God is such a patient teacher, that He will give His students(aka His kids) plenty of chances to retake until we pass it. Well I'm tired of retaking, so it's time to stay focused and pass. Will I see this test again? Yep and probably next week...apparently God's ready for me to pass it now and I am too. I'm tired of feeling frustrated and letting discouragement be my focus. Things will not always go as planned, but reacting His way will keep you in His plan.


I wish I could say that after passing the test, the material wouldn't be presented again, but it will. It's not that it gets easier, it's that you get stronger with each test passed. Now why is this blog titled The Waiting Place? How many times do you know the dreams God has placed in your heart, but you stand waiting for them to come to pass? Dreams that you know you are supposed to walk out, a call that only you can do, but you don't see how it is all going to come to pass. I've realized those moments can be exciting, simply because it means God is fixing to show out and do what only He can do. The waiting place is where you learn patience(not an easy lesson!!). The waiting place is where you learn His timing has nothing to do with yours. The waiting place is where you learn to trust His timing and know that if He still has you where you are, the season isn't over yet. As long as you are willing to move when He says too, you'll know when it's time to.

Dreams are a part of you for a reason, don't let anyone take that away. God has given each person talents and gifts. He is using this waiting season to develop those talents and gifts by developing the fruits of the Spirit. You are a unique individual and He knows that. He has a reason why you are where you are, learn it and just cooperate. You'll retake the test until you pass anyway.

Different kind of blog I know, but the past two days have been diamond making days. Days when I'm just thankful to know God's got it, because my feelings want to explode, cry, and stand up for myself. Change what you can, and then let go of the rest and leave it in  His hands.

As much as I want this season to pass because I am so ready to pass the test and move on, I realize that this season is making diamonds, it's sandpaper smoothing out the rough edges. It's a cookie cutter taking off the excess so to speak.

The best advice He has given me thus far, "know who I say you are, do what you can do, take care of you, and let me handle the rest."

Until next time,
~Melissa