The Proper Time

Galatians 6:9 has  been on my heart this week. "Let us not become weary in well-doing, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up". (That may be a combination of versions, but you get the gist).

So what is the proper time? It's certainly not our time, because we live in the flesh and we are impatient. It's God's time. So how to you get to where you see God's timing(or God showing out as I sometimes like to say)? Answer is: patience and trust. It takes patience to keep doing what you know you are supposed to be doing(regardless of how you feel) each and every day. It takes trust in Him, knowing He has your back and knowing that as long as you just keep doing what He has told you to do....He will take care of the rest.

So why do we get stressed and find ourselves in a mess? Because we trust in words but not always in action. We are patient as long as it feels okay, but when it gets tough we want to give up. Let's face it...if we are operating as us, we can do NOTHING!!. The world we live in today is becoming meaner by the minute. As sad as it is, you have to watch your back otherwise you will end up with a knife or two in it. You have to be careful how much you give, because there are those out there that will take until there is nothing left of you. The world is mean. It takes reliance on Him to walk boldly forward, knowing He has your back(when the knife comes, it hits Him not you first). It takes trust with actions that leads to a peace to know what He has called you to do. It is fine to give to others, but know your boundaries. Honesty check: I am HORRIBLE at this still. Where has it gotten me this year? More stress than I have ever had  before and it is now starting to affect my health. It has to stop, but the only one who can stop it is me. You can give until you are so busy and running in circles you don't recognize yourself in the mirror. Hard lesson I've learned: Giving until until you reach that point only hurts you. They will not respect you more, think of you more, or do more for you just because you do for them. The hardest thing, but the most freeing is to realize that you have to believe in yourself as much as He does. Sometimes your only cheerleader is God....and that's okay ;-)

The last two weeks have been stress-filled to say the least. The next ten prove to be just the same. I am not a superwoman, but I serve a super God. I have had to come to grips with the fact that He and He alone is the one that understands me.(Although I have asked for someone with skin on....) I have also asked Him about some of my frustrations, and His reply was simply "What is done in the dark, eventually comes to light. You can only sweep so much dirt under the rug before it starts to show." We are only responsible for the seeds we sow. The law of sowing and reaping is biblical. It will come to pass at some point.

So I'm trusting Him for the proper time on a couple of things in particular, realizing that His word will come to pass. I'm finding comfort in the fact that He and I have a close enough relationship that He has clued me in on my gifts, talents, and where He wants me. (I have had more well meaning people over the last couple of weeks try to inform me where my gifts are, my talents lie, and what God wants me to do...Sad they can't see the real me but only what me they want to see). Please know that He knows me well enough to knock me upside the head if and when I need adjustment. I'm tired of being analyzed on facebook, so you are likely to see more blogs from the middle of the journey. I'm human and just blessed that He allows me to write things out. He alone knows my heart, and I trusted Him a long time ago with that.

Different kind of blog, but I'm just trying to be real.
Until next time,
~Melissa