I feel like a failure

Don't let the title throw you off, read the whole thing...there is meat I promise.

So this week, this has been how I have "felt". I even told a few people that yesterday, that I felt like a failure with the way some things were going.  WELL.....Only God would take my words and use them to teach a lesson only He could. So keep reading...as I said there is meat and not just venting.

Feelings will mess you up period. They just will and if you follow them they will mess you up even more. Feelings can be a good thing, but sometimes we have to do a feelings check. We have to look at what His word says and check our feelings with that. If the two line up, not a bad thing, but if they don't then follow His word. Now before you start beating yourself up because you have fallen and let feelings take lead, this takes TIME. When God wrote the verse about denying self and taking up our cross, I am pretty sure He had feelings in mind.

So when you get one of those feeling moments, what do you do? By no means have I arrived at perfecting this part yet, but I am pressing through it a lot quicker than I used to. So what do you do, well the quickest and easiest thing is to go God I feel this way, but I know you said__________. Be louder than my feelings. That's the quickest way, because then the feelings do not have time to take root. The next way is to take time to process that feeling. I have found that the busier you are, the harder it is to get slow down enough to put the feeling in its place. So process it if you must, but remember what He said and move forward. Hit the delete button on the feeling and quit replaying it. The more you replay it, the more it takes root. (Trust me, I know this all too well). If you will let Him though, He can dig the feeling up, bring healing, and give you what you need to smile and move on. One word of caution, He didn't say that you would never have another one of those feelings again, but He did say His word will never return void. Feelings may say you are one thing(and chances are they heard it from something someone said to you), but God says you are so much more.....

There are going to be days when you feel like a failure or feel like you have made a mess of things. Pay attention to your words. When you are saying I feel....remember it's not permanent. If you let it take root, it will turn into stress. If you can delete it, it turns into peace. Only God can take an impossible situation and remind you that you are Right where HE wants you to be.  Stay focused, know the darts and knives are not a surprise to Him, and know that He doesn't see you as a failure.

So I took those words to Him yesterday and let Him take them as use them to write this blog. Circumstances may make you feel like a failure. Situations can cause you to feel like you have messed up. Other people can bleed you dry to where you don't feel like you have anything left to give, BUT God says I've got this just keep doing what you are doing. God knows your heart and why you do what you do. Make His to-do list, your to-do list and stay focused. The only way to not fail at something is to never do anything.

So yes, I felt like a failure yesterday. It's life and the situation/circumstances led to that. Am I failure? No, because I can look back on yesterday with His eyes and see how His heart came through even amidst the busy.

Different kind of blog, but I am trying to stay focused on the other side of the soap box. He is using this year and all that entails to make me more like Him. He's got this in so many ways!

Enjoy the journey,
Until next time ~Melissa

Next blog: When you are doing what God wants you to do, the knives and darts are going to come. It means you are making the enemy mad. He took this word that He gave me yesterday and painted  picture. He continued writing on it last night. I'll type it out soon! Stay tuned!