I've been back to probably the closest I'm going to a routine for a little over a week now and have found my feelings all over the place. I'm coming home exhausted which is typical for the first couple of weeks back. (even in normal settings without all that 2020 has brought me). Anyway....I'm missing some of the time I had to spend just sitting at His Feet. Don't get me wrong, the time is still there....but it's different right now because of a whole host of things. Anyway stay with me.....we are in the middle of 21 days at church and I can't say I've been all-in with it, but I'm getting up and listening to the messages and then spending that time pressing in while getting ready. This past week, Wednesday was a message that was a GAME CHANGER. Every 21 days there is a shift that happens at some point.....Wednesday's message was that for me....I knew God was trying to press something through, but I needed time to process it. I'm not sure this blog is actually done....honestly as the title says I'm still sorting out the whispers....The message on Wednesday was on using our testimony as a place of prayer...in other words, if God did it for us, we can use that faith that He will do it for someone else. There was more said but I forgot to take notes (here's hoping they archive them like they normally do). I had a bone density scan that same morning, in the same location where the enemy had thrown a diagnosis at me. The bigger picture was not lost on me, I was like God ...whatcha up to. Sitting in the waiting room, brought such a different perspective....it was like I could feel what was walking into that room.
Ever have one of those off mornings where you try to fake your way through it, but it doesn't work? Pretty sure I had one of those this morning. I was all up in my feelings and let's just say the Spirit was not the loudest. Just staying real and transparent......When I got home I watched the sermon and immediately knew why the enemy was pushing on each and every button that he did. There again was that message that lined up with what God had been trying to push through. (About your infirmity not becoming your identity, but a place of authority). Ya'll when God sends you more than one message within a week on the same topic....He's trying to get through to you.
The song with this one sums up the sorting out the whisper moments I've had over the last week. God's pushing something through. There's probably a few more blogs coming out of the last few days....but for now hopefully my rambling makes sense.
It's hard not to let the physical be the loudest. It's hard not to ask God why couldn't you have some days. It's hard not to answer with the "I'm Fine" answer that everyone expects even when you are holding to fine with a thread. Ya'll God gets it.....when those moments hit, learn to recognize them. For me, it usually means the enemy is trying to distract me from whatever God is trying to get me to hear. It doesn't mean there won't be a fight, but it means the victory path has already been cleared.....you just gotta keep stepping! One of the declarations I make every morning is that No weapon formed against me shall prosper, not even a side effect. This morning God whispered, now remember what that verse means child....Weapons will form, side effects will pop around, but they won't prosper...they won't be able to take root and be consistent. Four months in, and He's right......I just gotta stay focused on the grapes even though the giants seem close!
More later....
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