Oh me.....

I think I've said that more than I care to admit over the last two and half weeks. I'm harder on myself than most and to be honest I can be my own worst enemy. I've spent a lot of time thinking(probably too much) and not near enough time thinking. You know there comes a time when your thoughts will only stress you out, mess you up, and take you to levels(stress etc.) that you really don't want to go to. I'm also learning that stress in the head can only lead to stress in other places. Some days you run circles around your day, other days your day runs circle around you. I'm at the point where I have to stop and play catch up before I can run again. I've hit the ground running and I'm trying to keep up. Which has lead to this lovely blog...........(so I guess it wasn't a wasted moment). Some races are short distance, some are longer sprints, and some have a hurdle every few steps, and yet even some are ran with the help of friends. We all have races in our journey that resemble one of the races I just mentioned. If you watch a trained runner though when they run, they always keep their eyes ahead, they have one goal in mind and that's finishing well. That's how we should run our race....regardless of whether it is a short sprint or a leg of our journey jumping over hurdles. As long as we keep our eyes focused ahead and on the goal, we are going to run well. It's when we look down or around at what others are doing that we mess up and end up falling, or not finishing as well as we could. I just want to finish the race doing my best without getting run over by the other runners. (I know some of you can relate to that).

As hard as it is, it's not about what others do or don't do. God didn't call us to worry about them or compare ourselves to them(that truth is slowly taking root). You are responsible for the job you do. When you lay your head on your pillow at night, you are the only one God wants to ask about your day. He's not interested in what others did when He's talking to you about what you did. Be content at where He's called you to right now, He has a reason. This school year promises to bring more blogs, but in a different way than last year. Last year I was stressed to the max and usually when I reached the bottom or the breaking point, a blog would emerge when He would put me back together. This year it's about growing fruit. It's about keeping your mouth shut when all else fails and standing when you want to run. It's about staying the course and trusting in the one who holds the GPS. It's about knowing your heart and knowing the call He has placed on your life. Be patient sweet child, you will bloom when I'm ready(I've heard Him say this MORE than once). Trust Him, He knows you want to make a difference.

Until next time
~Melissa