Reality check moment......

I had no intentions of posting another blog until May, but it is a blog or bust kind of night. Let me say first off, this is a true honesty check/being real blog.

I am tired, more than that I'm exhausted and worn to the bone. I'm also smart enough to know this is the time when the enemy works his best schemes. If he can keep you busy, tired, and stressed...he has won. Apparently I'm making the devil MAD....because he keeps trying to throw it on me. To quote our youth pastor...what a blessing... Little does the devil realize, I've come too far to let the stress win. It may get down, but I won't stay there. It may wear me out physically and mentally, but Spiritually in my heart...I know God's about to show out.

Joyce Meyer said something this week about how God doesn't like it when His children are mistreated. Our attitude in response to that determines what He does next. Got me to thinking.....how hard it is to pray for those that are mean to us. It's hard to ask God to bless those that have stabbed us in the back, those that have walked all over us, those that have thrown us under the bus and then drove over us with it. But isn't that what God calls us to do? If we are praying for them, they can't hurt us. If we can get to the place where we see them through God's eyes, we can take a step back and stop. God's got our back. Every knife will be worth it, every tire mark, every footprint...but we determine how quickly He can get to work. OUCH!!

This revelation hit me like a ton of bricks. She just started it yesterday....God finished it a minute go typing it out. See for the last couple of weeks at work, I've felt useless, like I can't do anything right, and like I'm barely keeping my head above water. Satan knows my weak spot, the weak part of my day...and it's there. I've been so out of balance in that aspect that it has affected the other areas of my life.

Respect yourself, believe in yourself, have confidence in what God has called you to do and what He has placed inside of you, and walk forward. Don't let the way people treat you determine who you are and how you act. Hard lesson especially after repeated "abuse" and mistreatment, but trust me He has got this.

Just being real.......
~Melissa