Me for a Minute blog...

The moment when God speaks a truth straight to your Spirit that your flesh isn't happy with, but you know it was from Him....because it was needed. I'm thankful He knows what we need and doesn't always give us what we want. Our flesh wants what we want, but our Spirit is satisfied with what we need. Our flesh wants a quick answer that will make us feel good in a moment....our Spirit knows that the answer needs to reach a part of us that fills not just feels.

My confidence level seems to be a target for the enemy over the last couple of weeks. To say I've doubted myself and felt discouraged more than once would be an understatement. I think we all have that spot that the enemy pushes...that place where we need Him to show us how to fight back. Last week I remember crying out in my quiet time...help me God. His reply was I already have. I am sure He saw my face because I was like..ummm, how. See that's when the revelation of all that was on the inside of me started coming into view. God knows when we are ready to fight back in our prayer time, He knows when our Spirit is ready to battle in a realm that only it can. He knows when we are strong enough to fight back with truth and not let feelings win. Hear my heart for a minute...God is always there to help when His children call out to Him, but there comes a time...just when Peter had to trust that he could walk on the water...that we have to trust Him as well. There is a season when help is God reminding you of the power that is on the inside of you and then saying tap into it Child.

I still don't feel very confident right now, but I am working on not dwelling on that. Several days in my prayer journal have ended with the I'm not confident in what I can do, but I'm confident in what He can do through me. I'm confident that God finishes what He starts and this good work is only beginning. We have to get to a point where the truth of His word is our focus and our heart's confession...not what lies the world sends.

God has a plan and a purpose that only you can do. He has someone in your path everyday that need what YOU can pour into them. He has people that He has laid on your heart that need you standing in the gap for them and interceding on their path. There is a battle in the Spiritual realm that the army of God is being called to fight. God didn't pour into you for you to put a lid on it.

I don't know how your week has gone or if any of this even makes sense. This is just a snippet of some of the conversations that God and I have had over the last week. I have had to fight my flesh not to let my feelings be louder than His truth. God has a plan and a purpose and a calling for me to walk out....That has to be my focus (not how I feel). Maybe you can relate...If you are stuck in the middle of a feeling moment, ask God for a truth to calm the feeling. It may not be what you want to hear, but it will be what you need. His word is balm for our soul. God has a purpose for the feeling...if you'll leave it with Him. As much as it doesn't make sense to you, it makes perfect sense to Him.