I have a CD that has been a mainstay in my car for the last two months. I haven't listened to my Satellite radio or anything else for the past two months. I call it my fight CD. It's given me the push more times than I can count and it continues to do so. This morning was another one of the days. The enemy has been pushing this week. The liar has brought up things that God has already covered, but apparently he likes to still run his mouth and do his best to get me distracted. The liar knows my weaknesses, I know that....but I also know that God is stronger than those weaknesses. God understands my inside better than I do (Thank you Lord!). God knows when the enemy pushes, I'm gonna need Him to rise up to push back. He's been faithful every step of the way. You may be reading this going, what does she know about struggles....oh sweet reader if you could only see what's played inside of my head this week. The moments when I have pulled myself into His lap because I didn't feel confident to do what I knew He was calling me to do. The moments when I laid out my self worth, insecurity issues in His lap and asked God for His mirror please to see myself the way He sees me. The moments when the scripture that was balm to the wound....was what I read in my quiet/war time with Him. The moments when I didn't feel like doing anything, but being on an island and staying to myself. The moments when my flesh wanted to react to a hurt, but revelation from Him said I had to release that in His hands. Then there was that moment this morning...when this anxious flesh of mine was not my friend. God is always, always on time. My fight CD was in and the song started....the tears came and God started speaking peace to my soul. The sweetest moments over the last few months have been those prayer times when my flesh had no idea what was being said, but my Spirit was praying for what I needed. This morning was one of those moments. My drive to church isn't very long, but this morning it was just what I needed. God knew what my soul was hungry, crying out for...and through a song that I had listened to countless times already...He spoke past my feelings, past my doubts, past my emotions, and past the lies the enemy was shouting. God spoke to that part of me that understood who He had called me to be. I've grown in Him over the last six months and this week was another one of those "moments" where God says...you are stronger than you think because you are strong in Me. Strength that is a feeling is not a strength that is healing.
The title of the blog is a line from the song "Take me to the King". If you have never heard it, Google it and listen to the lyrics. There will be those moments when we are just tired, we have poured out faster than God has poured in. It happens especially in this world we are living in today. The people we are coming into contact with are hungry and seeking after something more than a feeling, but something that is filling. There will be moments when the strength we need to fight is buried under the layers of the week. Those are the moments I have found, when if I can just get still for a minute..my Spirit takes over and speaks for me. Those are the moments when flesh aside...I just need Him. So many times we are seeking after what we want God to do instead of what we need God to do. There is a difference. We may want God to move in a certain situation, but we need God to move in us.
Child of God, God knows when you feel tired. He knows those moments in your day that drain you and the moments in your day that fill you. He knows when you are seeking after wants or seeking after needs. He knows the inside of you. He knows what you can do if you will just let Him do it through you. He knows that He is the only One who can take care of those doubts, those fears, those insecurities, those feelings. Oh if we could truly grasp how much He loves and values us as Children of the Most High. He has a Promised Land journey for you this year. Are you ready to move forward and take back what the enemy has stolen from you? The Israelites spent 40 years wandering in the wilderness, complaining, and worrying about how the little things. They were so focused on where they had been, they couldn't see the steps that God had ordered to bring them to where they were today. They were content to go around the mountain when God had greater things in store.
I don't know what your week holds, but God does. He knows how you are going to feel, what you are going to say, and how you are even going to respond to those moments that make you count to 10. God has already planned a way out of those difficult spots, Him. Are you going to listen to your feelings or His truth? One can be draining while the other is full of strength to keep moving forward. Trusting doesn't mean knowing how it's all going to work out, it means knowing whose job it is to work it all out.
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