I went into my prayer closet with a bad case of the "I'm done" and "I just don't care anymore" and this verse was what I got spoken back to me. Needless to say, my flesh had to have some time to process because I wanted a release. I wanted a move on, "it's okay" to quit answer. I wanted a get your running shoes child. I'm just being real. So many times we can let our feelings dictate how we react to something if we don't take a step back and see His perspective. We know where the fire is coming from, what our passions and gifts are, but have we conveyed that? Do we let our passion speak or our frustration speak? When you are able to do something and it comes naturally at times, it's not just by coincidence. It's a gift....no matter how you try to spin it...God has a purpose for you to use that gift area for Him. He didn't give it to you by chance, He didn't randomly decide oh this person can sing and this person can play the drums, or this person can run media. He knew what He was doing. He also didn't order your steps the way He did and give you the story He gave you to tell for you to keep it to yourself, but that's a blog for another day. So many times we let our feelings dictate our thoughts...but I'm learning that we feel that way for a reason, we need to take a step back and see why. Why do you get so upset about something not being done right or frustrated that it always has to be fixed? Passion is a fire that God has to control. I think back to Science class and in the lab, with one knob you could control how strong the flame was...who's hand is on your flame? I don't trust myself enough anymore for that....God on the other hand yes. Heart made whole by Crista Black Gifford is already changing my life. She challenges you to basically quit getting mad at your heart and look at what your heart may be trying to tell you. God's expectations for ourselves are a lot more reasonable than our own. He's not looking for perfection, He's looking for pliability. He's looking for us to be willing to be on His potter wheel as He sees fit. The season you are in right now may feel like a small vase and your ability to pour out seems limited, but God's saying hop up on this wheel. Let me do what I do best...you see I think we get our minds so set on I'm always going to be this___ when we start this journey with God (whatever that may be), but God's saying...stay pliable in My hands. I'm always working on you Child to make you into who I created you to be. That push and pull is me stretching you for a wider reach than you ever imagined. (Remember I'm visual....I picture a small bowl or vase on the potter's wheel being stretched and molded into a larger one that can contain more), We ask Him for more, but are we willing to do what that means to receive more?
I've pressed through and released more this week than I could write about it in one blog. Those are coming.....
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