Some mornings you know there must be a blog...

Some moments are just messy and feelings can make them even messier. Some mornings bring tears and frustrations....so what do you do when that hits? What do you do when you start wondering if you missed God again because it just doesn't feel right? Feeling right isn't a bad thing...sometimes it means you are right where you are supposed to be and the enemy is SCARED to death that you are close to your calling and purpose. Sometimes it doesn't make sense because it's not supposed to...He wants us to trust especially when it doesn't feel right. The enemy likes to push certain buttons and knows exactly what to throw your way for doubt to be right in front of your face. Are you going to grab it or are you going to go home and take yourself to your prayer place with Him knowing you need Him to move period? 

Sometimes we feel the push and it lands us on our face....but when we let the push draw us closer to Him, a shift happens. I'm not saying I've got this thing figured out because I so don't. I almost tripped over my own feet this morning and took myself home to a nap and a God really session. One of my life verses is about how God has ordered our steps. He made that verse take root when I truly understood what He did on a North Carolina interstate back in 2010. So if He ordered them, He's got them ordered now and He's not going to let me miss Him. (and yes I asked Him again this morning and even said out loud it felt like I had missed Him). So I went home and put on what I know is that sweet place with Him, I put on what I knew what not only take me to His throne but to His lap. Sometimes God is trying to get our attention just for us to come crawl up in His lap....and when we get up there, He cups our face in His hand and says what we need Him to say. This morning ...it would be another reminder of "Trust Me, Child". 

I don't know what God's doing right now, but there is a battle going on that we can't see....and He's needing us to stay focused on that. As Children of the Most High, our battle isn't one we can see. If we fight on the level we can see, we are fighting a battle we will never win. It's time when we know how to fight, to arm ourselves and fight in the realm that can't see. Hear my heart for a minute.....the enemy knows how to distract you from fighting and to make you think you can't fight anymore....(been there, done that). It's in those moments when you have to make a choice to walk what God's called you to....even when you don't feel like it. 

I'm thankful for words of confirmation. God knows what we need and will get us to the place where we can hear what He's trying to pour into our Spirits. God doesn't fill us up with a word for us to keep it to ourselves though, He stirs it up on the inside for us to share it with someone to pour out what He's poured in. That sweet readers is why we have to stay filled up because there is a world waiting on us to be His hands and Feet....and once they see us as His hands and Feet, they will listen when we share Him. The struggle is real though when life takes over and the schedule is crazier than ever. The struggle is real when you feel like you are fighting alone and trying to press through even when it doesn't seem like anyone understands or can read the face you are wearing. I get that....but know this, He's there and understands right where you are at. He's got a purpose for that push and when we listen, He starts to bring into view what He's been doing all along. It may not make sense to anyone around you, but when He stirs up that calling on the inside of you....there is a peace that makes everything else grow strangely dim. 

So this blog may have been just me preaching to myself and writing so I can remind myself for later, but just in case it hits home for someone else, I'll end up clicking publish. I understand more and more what God meant by dying to flesh every day....but I can I tell you some days I have to die more than once during the day. Every time feelings and emotions rise up, remind them whose you are.  There is a seed of everything that is yours as His Child, just because you can't see the fruit yet doesn't mean it's not growing (and I claim that in Jesus Name #patiencewillbemineoneday).  We were never made to fight the battle on this level because the victory has been won in levels we can't see.  For me it means, walking in who God says I am and letting that be my focus. Insecurity will always rise up if I'm looking anywhere but at Him and I was reminded of that again today.  What has God promised you? It's time to go after what He has said was yours and take it back. Your praise isn't tied to the opinions of others, but your praise could be what God uses to move someone else. That prayer you keep praying for God to show you where your place is.....may very well be in the gap for someone else(Ezekiel 22:30). It doesn't feel right because it's just meant for you. God doesn't do something in you to not do something through you. It's not always going to make sense to those around you, but you know what God has called you to.....don't get distracted. God is in the details and the rest will be a story only He can write. (that's a blog for another day). What you have seen God do is what someone else may be waiting on. Grab a hold of if God did it once, He will do it again....and go to war as only you can Child of God.