Alright this is looking to be one of those my heart with some meat squeezed in posts. God actually started writing late last night, early this morning. So much has been on my mind lately. I'm thankful He gets it. God understands where we are and He gets our feelings. I've felt worn all day today. I've been tired, overwhelmed, and if you ask my body it would probably say stressed. I love how we try to say oh I'm not stressed, but if we would ask our bodies they would SCREAM out something different. I've known it for the last few weeks that the balance of my life was slowly becoming lopsided. So I dug my heels in the sand this weekend and said God I needed a word. He knew I did, but what I got was a whisper of I've got this. Well duh....my heart knew He had it, but my feelings and head were having trouble catching up. I knew the balance wasn't there and honestly I knew the buttons that had made the scale start to tip, but the real question was how to back track? It's HARD. It's hard when you recognize the scale is tipped and you need to readjust, to readjust. It's hard to know just how to go about putting the scale of life back in balance, God tells us what to do, but the actions to words require even more. Can I get real for a minute? Have I said yes more than I should lately? YES....Have all the yes's lined up with God's assignments? No....I can look back and see where the shift happened. I can see where the line should have been drawn and I kept on. Now I'm trying to put it in reverse and get some balance back. I don't like how the last two weeks have gone. Pretty sure God doesn't either....So tomorrow starts the putting it back in perspective and that will probably involve the word no. In case you haven't encountered the enemy this way yet, he's sneaky. The enemy knows just what our flesh needs, and he will do everything he can to feed it.
If you haven't seen the news lately, watch it. The situations in Iraq and with Israel are heart breaking. It's time to break the fence down that some Christians have been walking on and get serious about what God has called us to do. It's time to get serious about sharing God period. I'm not a gloom and doom end of the world is coming, but folks it is. The signs are around us and there is a sense of eternal urgency in the air. We need to get busy about things that will matter in eternity and let some of this non-essential stuff fall to the waste side. (Hello Melissa...that means computers, printers, and phones..long story, but God just stepped on my toes as I typed). Is what you are doing now, what you would be happy doing if He were to come back this very minute? If you ask yourself that question and let it sink in, it will change you. There are Christians having to not only speak about their faith, they are dying for it. Let's at least act on the faith we talk about here in America. Get off the fence and either be hot or cold period.
This whole Robin Williams thing has touched a lot of people and left many in shock. Let's let it change us in a good way. Love people where they are. Pray for God to do only what He can in their lives. Listen to people. So many times people just want to be heard, be that ear for someone today.
I'm not perfect. There is a lot of this journey I'm still trying to pass without a re-test, but I'm making progress. I know who I am in Him. I know what He has called me to do and not to do. My heart's desire is to please Him. There is a fine line between the disease to please and the call to love. If you look at the fruit of the last two weeks, I'm not sure what you would see. Revelation from God this afternoon was precious. The more determined we are to do what He wants us to do, the more the enemy is determined to keep us doing anything but that. Your this and your that are your this and your that, because you were never meant to carry them on your own. I'm convinced the more complex my this and that get, the more I know it's more of a God thing than it could ever be a Melissa thing. The lesson isn't learned until the application has taken root. God let it take root. Thank you for knowing my heart and for whispering as you do. God's timing is perfect and His methods are supreme. There is a stirring in my Spirit and a peace knowing the battle isn't mine. I would love to tell you if you see me tomorrow you won't see my overwhelmed face, but I don't know. I've asked God for one of those moves as only He can, but this child of His has to remember the plan may not always make sense to the student, but the teacher always know the purpose and the intent.
Until next time,
~Melissa
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