I'm not exactly sure what to call this blog(I'm actually typing it without one at the moment). There has been a lot going on in the last week or so, from God showing me where I was on His to do list and where I needed to be on mine, to realizing that I'm a lot stronger than I think. God was pretty blunt to me last night and I am going to take those words and put them where I can read them everyday. The last little bit the theme has been about perspective it's all about how you look at things. Do you see your struggles as problems or possibilities? Is it a mountain or a hill? Is it a victory or a journey? So many times we look at things through our eyes and focus on how we see them instead of looking at them as how God sees them. So back to His words of wisdom last night, He plainly said "You didn't walk off a bus 13 months ago to let this defeat you now". **Side note: Read my entries on June 30 and July 1st if you are confused by what I mean.
To say I'm struggling this year would be an understand statement, but with struggles come strength that only He can give. He's the only one who can keep you walking toward the goal knowing that it's not about what the others may say, but about what He knows about you. Some journeys are just for you two, even though we try to involve others ;-). I don't like change, never had, but this year my work life has been changed upside down. Yes I'm a perfectionist and yes' I'm a people pleaser(both things God is dealing with), but my new schedule may just burn that out of me. You do what you can precious reader, but there comes a time when you have to let Him do the rest. There has to be a time when the control is no longer yours, when He takes the wheel with it all, and when you realize that's okay. He promised to walk through it with you and to keep you safe. There is a time when you realize that maybe it's not time for you to use those gifts just yet. Sometimes we know we have an ability, gift, talent etc., but when we finally start to walk into it, we may be met with resistance. It takes God to not open doors on your own. It takes God to let doors close and know that it's okay. It takes God to keep going when you are starring at the door waiting for it to one day swing open. Do what you can while you wait, and one day it will burst open and you'll be able to run through it! I saw the movie Courageous this weekend...wow! Even though it may have been directed to parents, it hit home for me. It was a challenge, despite what the day throws at you, live it for Him and live it courageously.
Please don't ever think from this blog that I've arrived anywhere. I still have days when feelings get the best of me, when I cry during my commute, when I just don't feel like doing anything, when I want to scream, when I am confused because I know I'm doing the best I can, but it still doesn't seem to be good enough for some. That's life sweet reader, He never said our feelings would be easy, but He said if we'd trust Him He'd always be there. He didn't promise us the days would always go our way, but in time He will show us how the pieces fit into the puzzle. So if you are in my everyday world, I apologize now. I'm human, but I hope that regardless of the stress I am feeling, you can see Him. My new prayer is Lord regardless of how I feel about the day whether it was a mess or a success, Shine through. I pray you see more of Him and less of Me. Give all that you are to those you come in contact with and trust God to give it back to you.
Until next time..........
Was just reminded of this video....we all have days like this!! Praise God He's always there period!
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