It's been a week....It's been 9 weeks to be honest. I feel like I'm in God's boot camp and honestly that's okay with me. There are some things still to learn, some places He wants me to get to and some things He wants me to realize(and finally take to heart). I wouldn't trade this year for anything, because it has/is helping make me a better person. I ended this week exhausted but smiling(Friday will do that to you). I learned something this week though....even when everything is coming at you at once, cut yourself some slack. I am too hard on myself(shock I know). In fact, I'm harder on myself than God is, which leads to the stress, frustrations, and the overwhelmed feeling. I've been looking at things the wrong way. He started the week off talking to me about sowing and reaping, what you make happen for someone else, God will make happen for you etc. Friday came and the morning Joyce Meyer was on sowing and reaping...(yeah I know there is my neon sign)...So I started listening..So many times we look at something and think I really wish someone would.......but what are we doing to help toward that? In other words, if you want someone to listen to you, have you slowed down long enough to listen to yourself or to Him? If you want someone to pay attention to you, have you slowed down long enough to pay attention to yourself? You are on God's to-do list, are you on your own? So many times we run through the day going I wish someone would just cut me a break, show me a little grace......but we haven't showed ourselves any...
The sowing and reaping principle works both ways. Sometimes we need to sow into our own lives what we hope to reap later. I'm not saying we need to be selfish and have what about me moments all the time, but I have learned(the HARD way) that if you don't take care of you and pour into yourself no one else will. If you don't make some me time on your to do list for you, what you reap will not be pretty(i.e. frustration, stress, feeling like a failure and you can't do it). You can't do it all, the to do list will always be there, and there will always be something for you to do. The list will always get longer, that's life. Do what you can and let yourself off the hook, realizing that tomorrow is another day. God doesn't ask us for perfection, but for a heart giving it all we have. (In giving it all though, give yourself some too...)
God's mercies are new every morning, not just for everyone else, but for you as well! Forgive yourself and realize that others see your heart more than you think, because you see you are His precious child! When you are walking in His steps, it will show through(believe it and trust Him!!). I've failed at this more than I care to admit, but I don't see it as failing as long as once you fall, you get back up. Failing isn't failure if you learn from those scars. We all want to make a difference and know that we do matters, but sometimes we have to wait on Him to show that. Take those moments when you can see it and remember them on days when it's hard to see. We all need to be needed, God knows that. When you take things into your hands that are meant for His, it can only lead to hurt and frustration. Some things are meant only for Him to handle, and we have to trust Him to do that in His time. There are some things only He can take care of, and your feelings are one.
Until next time......
(which should be soon because there is a new blog coming...called Passing the Test).
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