I love that God is such a personal God. I tend to have a very specific prayer request list....and last week He answered more than one off of that very specific list. I love that He cares enough to handle things that may seem little, but mean a lot in our minds. Now if only His timing and my timing were a little more lined up, but that is a blog for another day. His timing is perfect, it's my impatience that leads to frustration, worry, and that ever nagging enemy of doubt. He's been talking so much this summer, that it's hard to sift through some of those conversations and to start to write. I'm starting to wonder if there isn't a book inside of me somewhere. The process of peeling back the layers is never easy, but there is such a peace when layers pulled back and He starts to connect some of the dots. Oh how I want to just sit in that spot for days. However that is not life and getting up to keep walking forward means taking that knowledge that was just gleaned and applying it to the walk ahead. How many times though do we hear a song, a sermon, a quote, or even a whisper from Him and leave it at that? Knowledge is mere words unless we take the next step and apply it. Obedience is the key that opens the door God has unlocked. God cares why you do what you do much more than may realize. He wants you to be satisfied with His applause and that alone. What you believe about yourself makes more of a difference than you see. You can be used by God or by people, but not by both...know the difference. Be cautious with your seed and the ground you sow into. God can take a good thing and turn it into a God thing. Trust the One that holds the flashlight to your life and knows the very rhythm of your heart.
Do I dare say I know where every puzzle piece fits in my life? No and I used to say I wish that I did, but I don't now. There comes a time when I don't know want to know every twist and turn that will happen. I want to know that He has this and that He knows how it is all going to turn out. Last week was a turning point for me and some of those pieces I was unsure about started making sense. God does that every now and then. My goal now is to take the knowledge and move forward with it (by applying it!). The mountain was rough, but I'm down the other side. I took some steps out of the people pleasing chain that He broke off. Let me just say that was not easy...when you have spent a lot of your time doing things because you wanted others to see or because they wanted you to do something, it is hard to stay focused on doing what you do not because anyone else cares but because He does. That's been my heart's desire all along, but I kept holding on to the excuse of but God my flesh...Well enough is enough on the flesh excuse. My God is stronger than any of that flesh desire and He can take care of that. I also had the revelation last week(not for the first time, but the first time I think I was really listening...) that He cares about why you eat what you eat. Sweets are not a bad thing if you are celebrating something special. HOWEVER...God does not intend for you to celebrate something everyday and multiple times during the day(or for you to eat when you are feeling your way through the day). We beat ourselves up too much on why we eat what we eat, when at least for me personally when I finally started listening to what He was telling ME to do....it worked. That truth goes back to something I said earlier, obedience is the key to open doors. He's also gotten on to me for my but I'm just ____(feel in the blank depending on the location or feeling). What He says about me is all that matters, not what others think, say, or do. The quicker I get that into my head(my heart already gets it), the healthier I will be in so many areas. This negative lie(from the enemy) left my thinking stinking and it kept my focus off of pleasing Him, but trying to pleasing everyone else and then some. Please hear my heart....believe what He says about you and that alone. Let that truth permeate your heart and make a difference in your walk. It's time for the church to get off of the fence and to be different. It's time for the church to apply what we know to our every day life. I can only change me and the more I look in His mirror the more I realize there is still so much work to be done. I can see progress though and for that I am truly thankful.
Be blessed this week!
~Melissa
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