Blooms...

God started writing this at midnight last night and then I was awake for the next hour wondering if I should have gotten up and started typing. Yeah next time...I may as well just type it out then...cause sleep didn't come as quick as I thought. The last couple of weeks I've felt a shift going on ..God's moving the walk to a run. God's moving the complacent to a fire that I can't shut off. He's moving the fear to a faith. He's shifting the insecurity to a confidence. Some of you are reading this going...insecure..umm yeah. I've always been my own worst critic and while God and I have some amazing conversations...sometimes my feelings/mind are louder. I can fake confidence with the best of them. God's been dealing with that too....so many times we get frustrated because we don't feel like anyone sees our heart ....when we have it so covered up, how could they. More on that in a blog later...but the picture He gave me last night was of a flower. The seed can be planted, the growth happen, but the bloom still be closed up. The flower has to let go of what they are holding on to so that they can open and be who the creator made them to be. The bloom will never happen if the flower stays closed up.

A saying that I have heard many times before is "Bloom where you are planted". So we set out to do the best that we can and pour ourselves into where He has us and may even see growth happen. Then we hit a frustrating point as seasons start to change....and we ask God what's going on? (If you are like me...He usually doesn't reply at first to that question...so I have learned to follow it up with a what did I miss?) God knows the seasons you are destined to bloom in....the enemy is fighting against that, because he knows what your bloom is worth. The frustration comes when we hit the season we were meant to bloom...and are still closed up. If we'll get still enough, He's patient to reveal what is still in our hands. He didn't say opening up would be easy...or letting go of what's in your hand (but it was really never yours to hold on to in the first place). The word says ask and you shall receive...sometimes we need to ask the questions even if we don't feel like knowing the answers.

This hit me like a ton of bricks...along with some detailed pieces that God's been speaking some blunt truth to over the last couple of days. Don't miss your season to bloom....let go of whatever (and whoever is holding you in) and open up to who He made you to be. Trust that He knows what is causing frustration and delaying the bloom.....it very well could be that thing He keeps bringing to mind for you to just obey what He's already asked/told you to do.