This is not on the list of blogs that I have in the works, but it is one of those blog or bust kind of nights. It's one of those nights when I have to blog or else, too much on my mind/heart. So this is a blog that is basically my heart on paper. It's a blog of me simply thinking out loud.
This has been an interesting week to say the least. The last couple of weeks have been full of diamond days. I'm going to be honest, I know God has a plan with the diamond days in my path, but they wear me out. I'm exhausted at the end of a diamond day. I'm exhausted because the enemy has thrown everything he could at me, some I've dodged, others have been a direct hit. Yet at the end of this diamond, sparkly day, despite the tired and worn out feeling, I am hopeful. Hopeful because I know my God has a plan that is for my good. Hopeful because I know that God is setting the stage and very soon is fixing to show up and show out in an amazing way. God has this and because He has this, He has me. The heat is still on in a situation(see a previous post), but I'm determined to go through this fire.
There comes a time when regardless of what anyone else thinks, the advice or support they offer or don't offer, you have to make a determination in your heart that trust matters more than the pieces falling into place at that moment. Trust in the One who Loves you the most to keep you safe. Trust that He will put the pieces in order in His time. Trust that you are where He wants you to be or else He would have moved you. The enemy doesn't fight us when we are out of God's will. If I wasn't where He wanted me to be, I wouldn't be feeling the discouragement that I do. I wouldn't be questioning things or wondering. See God sometimes puts us where He wants us/needs us, only He doesn't tell us more than right here child. It's our analyzing mind that messes things up by trying to make it all make sense.
God keep my heart and mind focused on you. Shut my mouth when I am looking for a pity party and let me run to You for the filling that I need. You alone can move mountains and fill the areas that the world drains during the day. You alone can light a fire that despite the mess of the day can make a difference one life at a time. I trust You and all that means.
I thought the layers had all been pulled back. I thought God and I had dealt with all that needed to be dealt with for now, but apparently I haven't. Apparently He has me on the accelerated track. I hope He realizes He and alone is going to have to help me keep up the pace.
He has me where He needs me for this season. The questions tell me so. God help me to make a difference.
Focused on the journey,
~Melissa
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