Sometimes He seems silent because He's already spoken what He needed to say.
If there was a way that I could pour out the discussions God and I have had over the last couple of weeks, it would fill up more than a post. There is a book in there somewhere and it's getting closer to time to write it. There is a story that only I can tell and a walk that has steps laid out for me. There is a urgency in my heart to keep the rocks from crying out in my place. He's been too good for me to let that happen, but sometimes we stay silent because we don't feel we have a story to tell. If you are breathing...you have a story to tell. God doesn't define stories by age, gender, or place in life. He's not looking to see if there is a ring on your finger or a title in front of your name. He's looking for someone willing to let go of comfortable. Someone who is tired of doing what has always been done and ready to take part in only what He can do. The seeds have been planted, it's time to start tending to the blooms....because God sees the fruit that is coming.
I have known that over the last couple of years there is a shift that is slowly happening in me. It's one I can't explain to most (and trust me I've tried), but it's seen by those who know me. Not the me that I always portray because let's face it, I'm queen at putting up walls and staying in the turtle shell if need be. I spent years being comfortable with freedom in one area and a box in the other....that is until God destroyed the box. It's taken a good fifteen months to finally see that my frustration is God's way of keeping me focused that I'm not at home. It's God way of reminding me seasons are on His timetable and the anointing on the inside isn't chained up anymore. It's God's way of saying, I brought you this far sweet child of mine...trust me for the rest. We all have struggles and things that God has guided us through, around, and over. Call it a testimony, call it a story....but you have one and God has a purpose for the one He gave you. Your part is to be willing, God will do the rest.
God's looking for us to give ourselves away to Him...He'll take care of the using part. He's not looking for us to give so much of ourselves away that we lose sight of who He created us to be. I want to be found faithful.....faithful to His plan for me, faithful to His calling for my life, faithful to the territory He has called me to cover. I want to stand before Him one day and hear Him say well done, I want to be able to lay crowns at His feet, and know that I used all that He gave me to use. I don't want God to have to ask, why didn't you use all I gave you? I could stay there for awhile, but that's a post for later. I'll say this....the talents on the inside of you are yours to invest. Don't hide them in the ground because of fear or complacency.
Post is different, but it's my heart right now. Transparency is where I'm at with God. I'm not perfect....I struggle daily with insecurity, lack of confidence, anxiety (just to name a few)....some days my flesh is louder, but God always breaks through. He's been faithful to send me those reminders...that His purpose is still moving forward, that I'm not going backwards, and that His anointing is still flowing. Look around us readers, God's calling all of us His children to move forward in the call He has placed for us. The mountain we used to travel around is meant to be left behind in Jesus name. God's calling us all forward....because there are souls to be ministered to and lives to be touched on the other side of the mountain that we keep circling.
I don't know what exactly God is doing, but I know He's moving. I can see some of what He's doing in the spiritual and my natural is encouraged despite the distractions. There is a confidence that grows on the inside of me because I know that God hasn't brought me this far to stop now. The bumps and struggles in the day are not to discourage me, but to encourage me...that God has the day when it's above me. If He told me the timetable of this season, I'm pretty sure my natural would stress about it. So I'm thankful He shows me one step at a time. I've see what He can do......and He's not finished yet!
I don't know where you are at in this walk with Him, but He does. He knows what He has planted on the inside of you and what He planned for you to do before you were even born. That tug, that push, that uncomfortable feeling.....listen to it sweet reader for it may be God trying to whisper to your heart. He knows what you need and when you need it. Those prayers you keep asking Him about, He's working them out if He hasn't given you an answer yet.....He's moving things in place even now and the best is still to come. God's been listening to every word you have whispered. Be encouraged today and walk in the victory He already claimed for you in Jesus name!
