My heart for a few.....

When God gets you before you ever get to church....you know He's wanting you to listen. Some days I think He gives us those moments to simply say hey get the mess off of your glasses and see what I'm doing.  So many times we can focus on what we are feeling or what everyone else is doing except what God is doing. Sometimes He gives us those still quiet moments to remind us just how much He's got this. I've been in the middle of a season shift for probably the last five years, but I didn't realize my position for at least three and a half of those years. Then I let some mess cloud my glasses (aka view) and my well and spent more time than I should have in the middle. I was stumbling over my own two feet as the verse reminded me this morning.

I'm my own worst enemy, my own worst critic, and overanalyze way too much. (Some of you just read that and said yes she does...hey I'm just keeping it real here). I know my weaknesses unfortunately so does the enemy because I've told him way more than I should. Life and death really are in the power of the tongue and on those days when we are just not feeling it are the days when we just shouldn't speak it. One of these days that lesson will take root, but until then I'm a work in progress learning to show myself the same grace He shows me.

I'm not exactly sure where this blog was supposed to head, but here's my heart on this.....if God has given you a promise, a vision of what you are supposed to be doing, stay the course. Don't settle for comfort when God has more in mind. Don't settle for complacency or just getting by, when God has abundance in mind. You aren't going to have everything figured out, but that's where the lean not on our own understanding comes in. It's a trust thing.......figure out what the Jordan is that needs to be crossed to get to your Promised Land and take the first step in the water. That's a blog for another day though...

Autopilot is never the landing place God intends for His children. We may visit, but we should never take a seat. God never intended for us to work so hard to fit in when He designed us with a one of a kind mix. I would even wonder if sometimes those things we keep apologizing for are the parts of us He made just for us. He knew us in exact mode and loves us just that way. Spend some time this week remembering the stones of what He's done before for you. Spend some time listening as He reminds you what He has promised to do in the future, and savor the time with Him in the present enjoying the moments that He gives you to make a difference.

I don't know where you find yourself as March ends and April begins, but God does. His revelations are real, His mercies are new every morning, and His promises are never-ending. There have been many days when I get so wrapped up in the present that I lose sight of the prize. My mind forgets that I'm supposed to be listening for the applause of One. My heart loses sight sometimes in the midst of loneliness (one day I'm going to do a couple of blogs on this single life...), and I forget until He whispers that He's given me a whole book full of words to encourage myself when I start to get down on me.  There's a new season coming.....those visions that have never left are going to come to pass becaue they are now my focus I'm running towards.

More later.....

"....won't stop until I see them fall"

I had a moment driving this morning where a line of a song that I couldn't seem to get off of repeat took me to God's feet in sweet worship. The tears flowed and I kept hitting the song over and over as I drove. The song Confidence by Sanctus Real has been a mainstay for me over the last couple of months. It's hit a part in my heart that I had let a wall build up around again. You see ...you can find freedom and forget about it. Busyness and distractions can slide in quickly and before you know it what was a flame is barely a flicker. Even as I type this, I've got the song on repeat again and the tears are back. The line that's the bridge I think is what has pressed in today..... "I"m going to sing and shout and shake the walls, won't stop until I see them fall".

Walls go up for a variety of reasons, some for security, some for protection, sometimes they go up because it's just the easiest. Sometimes we didn't put them up, we just ran into one and quit trying to figure out how to go around it or through it. We let the obstacle in our path (whatever that may be) keep us in a place that can grow too comfortable. Sometimes comfort zones can make us spin our wheels so to speak (aka frustration because we should be doing something more than staring at a wall). Y'all if you haven't figured it out yet....God will get His children's attention. I sought out some wisdom a couple of weeks ago after yet another round of antibiotics for a different infection (Dear Lord, let March be medicine free...). My mentor friend told me to test the spirits.....ya'll that isn't easy some times. I'm the one who cares way too much of what other people think and can overanalyze pretty much everything, but I knew God was trying to get through and had a word. I'm my own worst critic and most days I truly wish I could give myself the same grace He gives me, but that's coming. Some times God will let us get to a place to remind us of the place He meant for us to be all along. (Read that again). Hear my heart.....good things don't always equal God things and being busy doesn't always mean being fruitful.

There is an anointing from the pressing that got you to this point. You know what God's told you......stay the course and let the distractions (and yes He will show you what is distracting you) quit entangling you. God made you for more than staring at the wall you seem to have found yourself at. Press in, those are the moments where the oil comes from and know that the wall is coming down .....with each shout and push. There is a story to be shared with the world, armor up Warrior....and keep on.

I've struggled to write over the last year. I wouldn't call it a writer's block...more of an autopilot comfort zone I found myself in. God has been pulling the layers back over the last couple of months and fanning the flame again. We all have moments where we reach a wall.....sweet reader, it's just a wall and walls were meant to fall so you can step over them. You know what God's poured into your Spirit....and what He's called you to do. The enemy knows how to distract you......stay focused on the call and shout. Your walls aren't the only ones coming down.....because after all Warrior why would the enemy work so hard to distract if you.

Stay the course....more to come this month ;-) Thank you Jesus!