I know it's been almost a month since the last blog...it's not because I don't have something to write about, but it's because I think God's been writing some things that I had to walk first. There is a verse in 1 Samuel 30:6 that said David encouraged himself in the Lord. Ya'll let's think that about that for a second, this is the same David who had already defeated Goliath...He knew what God could do...yet there were moments that stressed him out to the point, he knew where he had to run to. Hear my heart I know David had his issues, but he was also a man after God's own heart. The last month or so has been a roller coaster feeling. Honestly, the virtual school has worn me out and I'm techie. If you haven't learned this by now...hear what I'm saying...when you are worn down and on the verge of worn out, it's harder to hear what the Spirit is saying. Some days it makes it harder to not give into how you are feeling and make an excuse for it, well it's just a _____ and accept something you have been declaring against. There was a shifting point about two weeks ago, where God was pretty blunt and pretty loud. He was like child why are you fighting with someone else's armor when you have the keys to fight already. That could probably turn into a blog in itself....but it's referencing back to when David was getting ready to fight Goliath and he tried to wear Saul's armor. When God has shown you how to fight a battle and you know what the results are......that's what He was referring to. You know where your lines are and when rest turns into a funk. It's different for everyone else and no judgment...this is simply me sharing what I learned. That day God started shifting things...
Does it mean that everything is fine and dandy? Why no...Friday night I could feel every joint in my body, but I didn't let it get me stuck this time. It's a process to continue to walk in what God has poured out and promised. I get frustrated some times when I have to ask for help for something that I should be able to do in my mind. As I was reminded last week at just the right time, there is something precious that comes from the pressing. That day when God spoke in about knowing what to do, it was like something rose up on the inside of me and remembered just how faithful He had been each and every step of the way. Ya'll sometimes that's what we have to do to stir up what is on the inside of us....Let's get real for a minute.....there may never be a day anytime soon when I feel like doing some things, but feelings don't get to win. Some days we have to walk forward knowing and trusting He's already gone before us.
I don't know what you are dealing with, but He does sweet readers. The same God who has moved mountains for you in the past is looking to move mountains for you in the future. He's not just faithful in one season to leave you alone in the current season. He's the same yesterday, today, and forever.....hang in there and keep pressing forward knowing God has plans beyond your imagination. I don't know why some things happen.....but I know the One who knows it all. That has to be our focus especially in this season we are in. God's pouring it out and looking for someone open to just receive it.
This song that I posted above was one I would wake up singing some mornings and go to bed some nights. It was a grounding moment in the season to remind me of how faithful God has been in the past and He would continue to be that now. For God to use these girls to speak life in, I look back now and see it as another way of God reminding me during that season how much He had control of it. When I couldn't see it just yet, now I can see with a different perspective. Sometimes we can't see what He's doing because all we see is the rain, after some time we realize what that rain was doing.
More later, but take this week one moment at a time with God and as you breathe out and breathe Him in...may He feel you with that peace that passes all understanding (aka doesn't make sense to anyone).
