It's been a couple of weeks......

So it's been a couple of weeks since my last post, sorry about that. These last two weeks have been rather long, but I think we all hit seasons like this. Weeks when our confidence is not as strong as it has been, weeks when it takes all of our energy to keep putting one foot in front of the other, weeks when we paste that smile up on our face just so we don't have to really tell anyone what's going on, weeks when we would rather just sit in His lap instead of walking. God's been silent some, but when He has spoken...WOW...some of it hurt, some of it made me smile, and some of it I'm still processing. I probably should have typed a lot sooner, but well I'm not perfect. I'm still learning and some of these lessons take more than one trip. So below are just a few of the things I have learned over the last couple of weeks.

I'm not a puzzle person. I don't have the patience to put them together and tend to get overwhelemed by shear number of pieces included. For some reason though, He likes to remind me of puzzle pieces and use them to teach me something. Sometimes there are 100 pieces and sometimes they have 1000 pieces, but God holds the box and knows just what the picture looks like. He turns them over in His time to reveal pieces of the picture. The hard part is discovering where the piece fits. We tend to want to make the piece fit where we think it will go or where we want it, but just because it looks like it will work in one corner may not mean that's where it goes. Most puzzles have four corners(i.e. seasons), sometimes pieces that look like they may fit in one(and some even do), but the perfect fit is found in another corner. It is frustrating to try and make a piece fit where it doesn't belong. Trust the one who holds the box showing the final picture and know that He will turn the pieces over as He's ready and He knows where they fit perfectly.

Scars are an interesting thing. In the Bible, Thomas had to see the scars in Jesus' hands to know that was Him. We would never choose to have a scar, but we all have at least one and for most there is a story to go along with it. This week I was in one of my moods when He and I were talking. I was frustrated about some things and having trouble understanding(hindsight showed my flesh was having the conversation instead of my Spirit). He reminded me that sometimes those scars are not just reminders of His amazing power, but of His amazing strength. His word for it was His staying power. So many times we ask Him to get us out of things when they deal with our emotional side, but when it's physical pain, we just want Him to get us through it...Sometimes scars/physical hurts remind us of His staying power. He didn't always promise He'd take the pain away, but He did say He'd never leave us or forsake us. He took me this week also to 2 Corinthians 12: 1-10(but that's a devotional still to be finished).

There is more still to be written, dreams that only He knows about, words still to be spoken, but this is a start. I'm still learning what His plan is in all of this, but there are few things that I know without a doubt. Those are: I'm a daughter of the Most High, a royal princess and heir to His throne(what He owns;-)). He loves me more than I love myself most days and when He looks at me He sees my heart. He trusts me way more than I trust myself(after all He said He'd never give us more than we can handle). Sometimes I run ahead of Him and sometimes I lag behind(or just stop in the road altogether). Sometimes I think I make Him smile/laugh, because of the silly things I do and sometimes I know I must make Him cry.  Sometimes I hear Him say.."That's My Girl!" and sometimes He says " You can do this" with His outstreched hand helping me back up. Most of all, He and I are on this incredible journey and each day I love Him more!