Oh my He's been writing the last couple of weeks, but it has not gone without some stubbornness on my part. At a stand still would be an understatement, but nevertheless I press on....
This time of the year is always good for reflection and re-energizing....thinking about things that need to be changed, reworked, or just being grateful for what did go right. (Yes contrary to popular belief, most teachers spend a lot of their summers in planning mode....). There comes a point in our journey where we have to stop and take a breathe. We start out running, when we probably should have been walking....after awhile it starts to hurt. At this point we can do one of two things, keep pressing on despite the pain...or stop. Things happen and growth takes place either way, but one is at a faster pace than the other. So for the last few weeks I've been at that stop point....I now know I should have kept running despite the pain that made me want to stop, but feelings and flesh won out. Oh how many times when God is moving, does the enemy throw a distraction in our path that does just that distracts us. Distractions can be a lot of things....things we create, things we allow, things we feel, things we don't feel, ourselves. Ouch...that last one hurt when He spoke that one to me....let it sink in for a minute as well. We can become our worst distraction when we allow our feelings, our thoughts, our wants to cause us to lose sight of what He has planned(the ultimate goal). Let's get real for a moment...we will never feel "good enough", "pretty enough", "skinny enough", "smart enough", "strong enough", (Get the picture....). As Children of the Most High...we don't have to worry about being enough....because He is more than enough! (Again...let that sink in for a moment...)
So on to the title of this post...dig it up...
God's been speaking about freedom to my Spirit, my soul, to me for the last two months. He knows I'm visual, so during this stubborn at a stand still moment, He spoke in a pictures to my heart. Freedom comes when we truly let it all go. Sometimes we have to go back and deal with some of things of the past that we have drug into the present. Sometimes we have to deal with thoughts of the future that are keeping us distracted in the present....whatever it is, it's between you and Him. God told me you've been laying blooms at my feet long enough...So many times we pull it up thinking we got it all, lay it at His feet, and proceed to walk on in our journey. The freedom lasts for a season, but then when the next season comes there is a bloom again. See what was pulled up, didn't get the root. Until we dig up those things that we have let take root, we will never be free. Tiny seeds that we didn't immediately give to Him, can take root and grow. We usually don't realize it has taken root until it starts to bloom...and we feel/see the effect. The roots are different for everyone, but some examples could be (insecurity, doubt, fear, self-worth, bitterness, worry etc.) Spend some quality time with Him and let Him show you not only what roots you need to dig up, but where/how the seed took root.
Personally I've laid a lot at His feet and in His hands over the last couple of days. I've asked more questions than I could count, gave Him feelings I had forgotten about, and asked for forgiveness more times than I care to admit. The journey isn't easy, He didn't say it would be. Grace however makes each moment worth looking towards. Knowing that we don't have to see the next season to enjoy the one now is priceless. Knowing that sometimes being content to bloom where we are at is what He has asked us to do. Oh how focused we sometimes get on the next door, that we forget to enjoy the beauty of the hallway. As a child digging up flowers on the playground to lovingly give to the teacher(roots and all), God wants us to dig it up and give it to Him.
God answers when we least expect it. Sometimes I think He wants us to just trust that He will answer and be patient. Sometimes the answer isn't one your head can make sense of or even your heart...because it was a conversation that took place between your soul and the One who wrote your story.
Until next time,
~Melissa
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