Just my heart....

I know it's the week of Thanksgiving, and I'll get to that post later on this week, but for a moment I just need to blog my heart. I've felt my way through the last couple of weeks, in fact probably the last month and a half. It's not a fun place to be. What I know has become clouded with what I feel simply because I allowed what I feel to become louder than what I know. God doesn't call us to feel our way through the day, He calls us to feel His way through the day. Easier said than done...just being honest. We all want to be a part of the group and to be included. We all want to know what we are doing is appreciated and/or matters to someone. We all have the fleshly need to hear job well done. Sometimes though God calls us to a place of just hearing Him say well done. He calls us to a season where the encouragement we seek can only can from Him. This is a season of preparation. A season where we at some point we wake up and realize the stone to knock our Goliath down has been in our hands all along. A season where we not only realize we have the stone, but we put it in the sling and launch it. The enemy isn't worried about us learning we have the stone in our hand as long as we never figure out we have the strength to launch it. It's time to knock the Goliath down. It's time to put aside the comments of others and walk in the anointing and the calling you know God has placed on your life. It's time to quit letting others put you in a box and it's time for the fire that has been smoldering to burn brightly. It's time to quit straddling the line and the fence and basically being lukewarm. Lukewarm happens when you stop caring. Lukewarm happens when you start caring more about what others say than what God says. Lukewarm happens when you please people and forget to love people. Lukewarm happens when you put yourself on the bottom of the list and forget it's all about balance. God took a day to rest and renew, there is a balance to the way He designed life to be. Lukewarm happens when feelings become your thoughts and therefore become your words. Lukewarm happens when you plaster that smile on your face, ignore the true feelings inside, and play the part in the script someone else handed you. Lukewarm happens when you quit being You. God designed you to feel a certain way, be a certain way, and do a certain way. He designed you to be you, not the you others tell you are, but the you He told you that you are.  Lukewarm happens when we go through the motions because we don't want to feel what He wants us to feel, but instead feel what others want us to feel. 

Have you given God all of you? Think carefully before you quickly answer yes. Do you still feel the way you want to feel about things or the way He wants you to feel about things? At some point in our journeys with Him, we realize that we hid some of those feelings deep down hoping that we could hold on to them for awhile. When He said give Him everything, He meant it all. He knows we aren't perfect, but in His hands He can mold us into a masterpiece that He already sees. It's time we look in His mirror. 

One step at a time along this journey of mine,

~Melissa